"All I'm trying to do is modify my plan"

I have been so on edge all week. Probably because the week got off to an incredibly bad start -- a situation which I can't describe (yet) but basically anyone on my campus knows what I'm talking about because the grapevine there is incredible. Suffice to say, it's made me a little bit jumpy. A lot jumpy.

It also distracted me from my goal this week, which was to find out why I seem to be undateable. Of course, talking to my friends about that is worthless. They all seem to think I'm a catch -- but of course they do, I'm not interested in them. (Suddenly wondering if the best strategy for snagging a boyfriend is to date someone I absolutely couldn't care less about... :P)

But, yeah, this week has been chock-full of arguments and just general crap. With everybody. But there's not really anything substantial to write about at this point. Not much has improved since previous posts, cause things are actually staying at a status quo this week. (Weird for me, isn't it?) Unfortunatley, it's a very dramatic status quo. I'm sure I'll calm down in a few days or something, and hopefully that will ease everything up.
And if I haven't relaxed by Tuesday, the pain meds from my surgery will definitely help, I'm sure. I've never been so excited for Vicodin.

Because this post has been mostly...nothing....here's a meme! I stole it from Brad.

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post, the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know they’ve been tagged and asking them to read your blog. (Brad didn't tag, and neither will I. Shush, we're rebels.)

1) What was I doing 10 yrs ago?
I was being a pretty typical ten year-old, dealing with bullies in elementary school and being better at reading and writing than almost anyone else in my class.

2) What are 5 things on my to-do list for today (not in any particular order):
1. Shower
2. Eat
3. Take Juli tanning
4. Go to class/finish group project with Lauren and Katalina
5. Perform the Diary of Anne Frank

3) Snacks I enjoy:
Chips, sour gummy candy...almost any junk food.

4) Things I would do if I were a billionaire:
Pay off all of my and my parents' debt...and my brother too, come to think of it. By a really nice but not extravagant house (or two...or three), and a nightclub that I could be a silent partner in. (I think my twin Brendan would probably run it, he once told me he wanted to run a nightclub.)

5) Three of my bad habits:
1. Chewing my fingernails
2. Never shutting up (which is the current reigning theory for why I'm undateable, ps)
3. Not cleaning enough

6) 5 places I have lived:
1. Cranston, RI
2. South Kingstown, RI
3. Exeter, RI
4. Elizabethtown, PA
5. Mount Joy, PA

7) 5 jobs I have had:
1. Actor
2. Stage Manager
3. Go go boy
4. A&F Impact Team Member
5. A. Eagle Sales Associate

So, I'm not going to tag anyone but if you want to do it, go right ahead!

Kind of an attention deficit post!

Okay, so the rules:

1. Link to the person who tagged you.
2. Post the rules on your blog.
3. Share six non important things/habits/quirks about yourself.
4. Tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs.
5. Let each random person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.

I've been tagged by Sue.

1. Sometimes I make my right eye twitch, just for kicks. No one's ever said anything, so I don't think anybody's noticed.
2. I have the biggest keychain collection out of anyone I know. It's gargantuan, and still growing.
   
3. This is really hard, because I have an inflated sense of self-importance so very few things about me are "unimportant"
4. Some of the foods I tell people I "can't eat" are really just foods I don't like.
5. I have a terrible habit of not finishing series. I'm trying to get better about it, but my to-read list is so backed up at this point that I haven't read the last book of Harry Potter yet. Still.
6. I hate doors. My dream house will have doors only in from the outside and for each bathroom. All the others rooms will be open or partitioned off via curtains or something.

I'm tagging....Shaney, Kevin, Kendall, Muse....and...oh, whoever else wants to do it. I don't care. :P

I've also gotten back into checking my stats on StatCounter. It's been lots of fun lately. I get more hits every day -- yesterday my blog was loaded 61 times! Judging from the popular pages and keywords that lead to my blog, I also need to return some of my focus to various hot celebrities. I guess that's what ya'll want to see. :P (Or maybe I just need to carry news of Ethan Reynolds, he's getting more hits than any other famous hotties!)
Also, underwear seems to be the big seller. I can certainly harp on that for, y'know, several years.

I've also found a few blogs that have linked to me -- and I have returned the favor, so everyone go check out my blogroll over there on the right.

As far as my keywords go, it breaks down like this:

	3	15.00%	ethan reynolds
	2	10.00%	adam bouska yanik
	2	10.00%	brent diggs randy blue
	2	10.00%	adam bouska
	2	10.00%	brent diggs fucking clips
	1	5.00%	hazzard ahead
	1	5.00%	http://graham-grahamblings.blogspot.com
	1	5.00%	ethan reynolds latest news
	1	5.00%	aaron james blake riley
	1	5.00%	aaron james, porn
	1	5.00%	blake riley danced
	1	5.00%	ethan reynolds photos
	1	5.00%	sally kern hero
	1	5.00%	mason wyler blog

I am so proud of AJ, by the way, not just for being on my keywords but he was featured in MTV's "True Life: I Worked in the Sex Industry". You should all watch it if (like me...) you haven't yet!

(Oh, and for those of you using Google to translate I want to personally apologize for any words I've made up that did not get translated!)

There is going to be a post coming up soon acknowledging each country that's visited my blog! I love all of you -- but I won't lie, the fact that 1.47% of my hits come from Italy is thrilling.

I have so many things to write about. My roller-coaster, television series life is continuing in the fast pace we're used to and that you all seem to enjoy hearing about.

But first I have some pressing business to attend to: Sue tagged me. So, I'd like to propose a boycott of Fair View.....no, I'm totally kidding. You should go read her blog. And comment. Many comments. More comments than any blog should ever get. Take that as punishment, Sue. :-P

Here's the survey I've been assigned...

• When you were born, how much did you weigh?

I have no idea, but I imagine it was a normal weight for a baby. If you look at my baby pictures, I am far from underweight. That changed when I hit about three though. :-P

• What's you're sugar poison?

Sugar, period. I love almost every candy, ice cream, cake, pastry, whatever. I have the biggest sweet tooth ever.

• If you had to choose between meat and cheese for the rest of your life,which would you choose? Then be specific.

What I'm about to say is heresy, because I am such a devout Cheesist...but I would pick meat. There are cheeses I can't eat (Pepper Jack, for instance) but there are no meats (except sausages, which ew anyways) that I can't eat. One meat? I'd have to pick beef. It's just good stuff.

• What, is your opinion, is the worst song ever?

Good question. Maybe "The Song That Never Ends" from Lamb Chops? Or maybe not, I dunno. I'm sure there's worse I just can't think of it right now.
Oh! Oh! Oh! That damn song about the Christmas Donkey? Dominic whatever?
Katie says "Mighty Fortress" has the worst lyrics ever...and she says that music-wise, it's the annoying song from AMC theaters...the one right before "Please enjoy your feature presentation..." She could be right.

• Who was your favorite teacher growing up and why?

My kindergarten teacher we still call "The Legendary Miss Cindy", so I'm guessing that she must be my favorite but I don't remember why. :-P

• What personal activity, when performed in public, bothers you the most?
  

Lenient parenting. I'm not saying, parents be strict and beat your children. Just make sure your children are at least somewhat orderly in public.

• Ok, there's a $50 bill lying on the ground. You pick it up. Dumbfounded by your incredible luck, what do you selfishly purchase?
  

Underwear!!!!!! The sexier the underwear I own, the more money I make in the future.

• Do you have a recurring nightmare? If so, explain.

Nope, I don't.

• Name one place on Earth you've never been, but vow to visit at least once.

Italy. Or Greece. Or Australia.

• You notice that question #9 wasn't really a question. You feel smart for catching such a small detail. What else can you do really well that reminds you how smart you are?

I am really not particularly smart and I didn't notice that #9 wasn't a question.....

I'm not going to tag anyone, you can do it if you'd like. :)

I promise to write again tomorrow!

Me me me me!

It's my birthday!!! I'm 20 years old!

Thanks for tagging me Shaney, I finally got around to it!

Pieces of Eight - Simply list 8 things about yourself that no one may be aware of!
So here goes:

1. I hate beans. All beans.
   
2. I think my health teacher in high school may have been mildly insane from the fact that she has only ever slept with one man, but somehow the idea is so romantic that it fascinates me.
   
3. My mother is a published author and my father is an actor and attorney.
4. I do have one festish: underwear.
   
5. I hate feet!!
6. I'm a total camera whore; not having a camera is killing me!
7. I passed my driver's test with a pretty high score: especially considering that I'd been driving for about a week!
8. I have only ever parallel parked twice.
   

Tagged are:

• Fairview Sue

• Rick Rockhill
• Brad
  
• Alan
• Johnna

That's good enough, right?

I can't get no satisfaction

I think I'm going to redo my tags in a style more like ExNavyMike's. This whole vague categorizing thing isn't working for me anymore. I'm never satisfied with this blog.

Plus, mom has my car and I'm bored.

That all said, as always, if you have any suggestions for me, let me hear 'em! (PS I'm saving up for a camera next, so that'll mean more pictures, faster!)

Oh! I have a meme to do, from Sue! I forgot about it!

PART 1: ON THE OUTSIDE
Me: Amazing
Date of birth: June 23 (it's coming up, guys, better get shopping!! :P)
Current status: Chronically Single
Eye color: blue like the Caribbean sea
Hair color: dirty blond--but with summer it'll lighten up so it's almost blond-blond
Right or left handed: ambidextrous (one of the many things that make me *quite* interesting to watch -- which hand will he use next? :P)
Zodiac: Cancer
PART 2: ON THE INSIDE
My heritage: English with teensy bits of German and Scottish and possibly Welsh
My fear: answering machines. Dead serious. Not voice mails though.
My weakness: green eyes
My perfect pizza: white pizza with chicken, brocolli, and bacon
PART 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY AND TOMORROW
Your first thought waking up: Noooooooooooooooo
Tomorrow: we celebrate my brother's birthday
Your bedtime: when I feel like it
Most missed memory: I don't know, I cherish all my memories but I don't really miss them
PART 4: YOUR PICK
Pepsi or Coke: Coke. Pepsi has citric acid, which is bad for me, and Coke does not. Plus, I have stock in Coca-Cola.
McD or Burger King: Wendy's. I'm an investor. ;)
Single or group dates: At this point, I'm not picky, I just want dates. :P
Adidas or Nike: What is Champion? Aren't they a knock-off of one of those brands? I don't know anything about shoes.
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Neither.
Chocolate or vanilla: Both. At the same time.
Cappuccino or coffee: Mocha latte.
PART 5: DO YOU...?
Smoke: No.
Curse: All the time!
PART 6: IN THE PAST MONTH, HAVE YOU...?
Drunk alcohol: TGIS was less than a month ago, wasn't it?
Gone to the mall: Yes, of course!
Been on stage: Sadly, no
Eaten sushi: Nope
PART 7: WHAT WERE YOU DOING...?
1 minute ago: This
1 hour ago: Eating and watching Judging Amy on TNT.
4 1/2 hours ago: Sleeping
1 month ago: Schoolwork, no doubt
1 year ago: I don't frikkin' remember a year ago.
PART 8: FINISH THE SENTENCE
I love: my life.
I feel: bored.
I hate: when things like the garage door break and mom needs to take my car.
I hide: very little.
I miss: my friends in PA.
I need: moneys!

PS: I'm good at hitting penguins. My top distance is 264.9. Thanks for that gem of a boredom-killer Fergie.

The Question You've All Been Thinking....

You're probably still wondering which of these is the lie:

1. I am a member of pretty much every networking site I've ever seen.
2. I have never broken a bone or been stung by a bee.
3. I don't know how to swim.
4. I'm a self-proclaimed seafood snob.
5. I am fiercely loyal to my coffee shops.

And I have to say, it was really entertaining what all of you said. Most of you got it right, but your thoughts were far more complicated than they needed to be.

I'm from Rhode Island, the Ocean State. I know how to swim. :P

Breaking out of the usual...

I don't typically do memes on this blog. I usually have too much else to say. But usually I haven't been tagged, and now I have this obligation to Steve to do his meme. :P

Memes are fun, maybe I should do them more often. Anyways, here goes:

Here are five things about me. Four of them are true. One is a lie. Try to guess which is which. :)

1. I am a member of pretty much every networking site I've ever seen.
2. I have never broken a bone or been stung by a bee.
3. I don't know how to swim.
4. I'm a self-proclaimed seafood snob.
5. I am fiercely loyal to my coffee shops.
   

I am tagging...Sue, Brad, Shaney, ExNavyMike, and Adam.

Let's see...today I went apartment hunting and saw the touring production of The Light in the Piazza. Neither was bad by any means, but neither really was exciting enough to have much to say on here.

Though I gotta say, the guy playing Fabrizio in The Light in the Piazza? HOTTIE!

Hrm. While we're on a roll with these memes, how about this one I stole from Brad?

20 years ago

1.) How old were you? -1. Aheheheh. I feel young now.
2.) Where did you go to school? I didn't.
3.) Where did you work? I didn't.
4.) Where did you live? Come to think of it, at this point twenty years ago (because we are that close to my birthday!) I was residing in my mommy's tummy.
5.) Where did you hang out? Mommy's tummy.
6.) Did you wear glasses? No
7.) Who was your best friend? I was very anti-social. :P
8.) How many tattoos did you have? None.
9.) How many piercings did you have? None.
10.) What car did you drive? I didn't.
11.) Had you been to a real party? Yeah, we really led life in the fast lane in the womb.
12.) Had your heart broken? Nope
13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced: I was preparing to divorce my umbilical cord.

10 years ago

1.) How old were you? 9
2.) Where did you go to school? South Road Elementary
3.) Where did you work? I didn't
4.) Where did you live? Mom and Dad's house. Coincidentally, the last residential building I actually felt at home in.
5.) Where did you hang out? My yard, the woods near my yard, the playground, the dirt road behind my house.
6.) Did you wear glasses? Nope
7.) Who was your best friend? I honestly don't remember.
8.) How many tattoos did you have? None
9.) How many piercings did you have? None.
10.) What car did you drive? I didn't.
11.) Had you been to a real party? I don't think I'd even been to a school dance.
12.) Had your heart broken? Nope
13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced: Single. Girls had cooties. Boys were weird. Not much has changed. :P

5 years ago

1.) How old were you? 14
2.) Where did you go to school? South Kingstown High
3.) Where did you work? I was doing lots of volunteer -- I hadn't quit Boy Scouts yet, but I'd started with the teen advisory board at the local library.
4.) Where did you live? Same place
5.) Where did you hang out? The park near my school.
6.) Did you wear glasses? I was supposed to wear reading glasses. At the time, I sometimes did.
7.) Who were your best friends? We don't talk about them, they turned out not to be "friends" only a few years later.
8.) Who was your crush? I believe I'd begun my crush on Kendall by that point.
9.) How many tattoos did you have? None.
10.) How many piercings did you have? None.
11) What car did you drive? I didn't.
12.) Had you had your heart broken? No, but it was obviously only going to be a matter of time and everyone, including me, knew it.
13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter: Single
14.) Any kids? Noooo

Present

1.) How old are you? 19
2.) Where do you go to school? I'm in college in PA. (If you pay close enough attention, you can figure it out, but since I don't know all my readers I'mma make you *work* if you really want to know. :P)
3.) Where do you work? Abercrombie, a gay club
4.) Where do you live? A dorm, and in my parents' new house with my grandmother
5.) Where do you hang out? Gay clubs, the student center, whereever the hell I feel like it
6.) Do you wear glasses? Nope. I have long since "lost" my reading glasse.
7.) Who are your best friends? Oh! I have so many friends now, and I'm close to a large number of them to! I can't possibly decide. I mean, Cody and Johnna obviously but otherwise I simply cannot choose.
8.) Who is your crush? I think I'm getting a crush on Matthias, and I'm not completely over James yet either.
9.) Do you talk to your old friends? Occassionally.
10.) How many tattoo's do have? I'm never getting any.
11.) How many piercings do you have? I'm never getting any.
12.) What kind of car do you have? My beautiful baby, Grandma's 2001 Dodge Intrepid.
13.) Has your heart been broken? Yeah, it has.
14.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter? Single. Getting on towards bitten.
15.) Any kids? Nope.

"He made my heart stop palpitatin' every time he came hear"

I have had a hell of a month this week.
Really just the past few days.

You see, Wednesday night I went out for dinner. "I'm going to dinner, I'll be back soon!" I cheerfully announced.
Then I got lost on the way to Friendly's, where I was meeting Don and Bob. Not just once, oh no, I got lost three times.
When I finally found my way, for real, it was dark and it was snowing. I was distracted. So when the light with the sign next to it that says "Left turn yield on green" turned green, I hit the accelerator...

...and then I hit the van.
I'm fine. The people in the van are fine. The guy driving the van was a dickhead, but I think he was like that before the accident.
I got out to see if he and all his passengers were okay. They were. He got out to insinuate that I had intentionally slammed my car into him (at 3 mph...) . Then he asked if I was on drugs. How you leap to that without asking if the person has been drinking first is beyond me, but that's not the point. I gave him a "Are you shitting me?" look and said no and he told me I was going to be tested anyways. Then he asked if I had a camera on me, and I told him no. He didn't either.

So he called the police, and I, in tears, called Don and Bob. I was only a block away from them so I figured they could help me. I had realized that I could not deal with this man -- the true definition of "crotchety old pain in the ass" -- on my own. Honestly, I don't think there is a better candidate for drug testing...skip the rats, just try everything on him. He could at least maybe help out mankind that way, cause I'm sure he hasn't done anything beneficial to the planet in decades.
Seriously, he was acting like the accident looked like the picture there, instead of a minor dent in his van's side door and a smashed headlight (and corner) on my car. It was all very, very minor, not at all the fifty car pile-up he thought it was.

Anyways, it probably didn't help his attitude that after he opened his mouth the first time all of the witnesses who had stopped immediately flocked over to my car to make sure I was okay, and to assure me that it was just a car and everything would be okay. You know, those things the witnesses always say because they're feeling awkward enough without somebody bursting into tears in front of them? Yeap.

Anyways, the cop also got sick of the old fogey, and was really nice to me.
Unfortunately, after Don and Bob took me to dinner...they no longer had time to take me back to school and I couldn't drive in the snow and the dark without my headlight. So we went to Don's apartment and picked up some art supplies he needed and then made the trek to Bob's house. I spent the night there.
The next day (after I e-mailed my professor and told him I wouldn't be in class) we all went off to Philly so Don could meet his client. Then we headed back to Bob's house. The plan was to get me to my car that night, but we were running late and it got dark and snowed, again.
Except this time the roads froze. We holed up in Bob's house for the night.

Don said the sweetest thing to Bob on the way to Philly, and I want to share it with all of you: "I can't imagine why I wasn't writing your name on my notebooks with hearts in middle school."
Say it with me now: Awwww!

This morning we got my car, I drove back to campus, and made it to my anthropology class for the first time all semester. I forgot to get a syllabus but oh well. In fact, I went to all my classes, called the insurance company, and did a whole bunch of stuff.
And then I got to my room, thought for a second, and realized I am absolutely shit-faced, can't-stand-up-straight exhausted. So I didn't go to work tonight. Which is bad because I'm taking tomorrow off too.

Unfortunately, I msised the Pretty Person of the Week, my audition that I'd decided to go to (thanks to Sue's advice!), and two meetings I had on Thursday. It was all taken care of so it was fine, but it was a little disappointing.

Meanwhile, I was reminded of this thing that I'd done before by Pete Ross...so I did it again.


Cilian Murphy? Nick Lachey? Yeah I'm okay with this. Really okay.