Monday night I went to Energy when I didn't have to work at Dark Lady and first thing I see? Two girls I went to high school with!!! We chatted a little bit, got caught up...I'm so different now from when I was in high school. I used to be nerdy, definitely not-so-much with the hotness, a total prude, and more than anything I was a people pleaser. I mean, I was so intent on doing what everyone expected of me that I didn't even realize I liked boys. Duh, much?
And now look at me. I'm like the total opposite -- though I'm definitely more me. And people like me better. Let that be a lesson to you. Those Above The Influence commercials are actually kind of on to something. :-P
Actually, Topher knows somebody I briefly went to high school with too, came by Dark Lady while I was working one night. It's always interesting because there's a "What the fuck??" moment. And of course they're always like "I remember when you were 'straight'!" Which, yes, I remember when I was "straight" too, kay, thanks. :-P
Anyways, the girls were mildly shocked when the exchange that's the title of this post took place. :-P
On a completely seperate and very much shallow note: I hate clothes this season. I was forced to buy some stuff from A&F a week or so ago to fit in with this season's key look. The clothes are so blah, and I usually like at least some of the stuff. This season, there's nothing. Then the other day, I was at the mall and I poked my head into the Gap. Hated it all. Looked in American Eagle and I liked one pair of jeans. I never really like what they sell at PacSun, but it was no worse than anywhere else. Hollister was full of crap (but it usually is). I went into Guess...and I loved everything. Unfortunately, I can't afford anything there. But if I had money.....ooooooooh!!! I loved it!
And here's the "It" Girl gossip from my point of view.... Now, ya'll know I looooove Lindsay Lohan. But dear God I hope she gets jail time. It might be the only way to get her the help she needs to live until I make it to Hollywood. Britney Spears...I used to hope for a comeback from her, but it just seems like she is too far gone. Paris Hilton....is a lying skanky hobag. She hasn't changed since jail. Who's shocked? Nobody. Nicole Richie, darling, my second favorite....why have I not heard anything about you lately??? And why have I not heard more about the medical problem doctors were investigating, that was preventing you from gaining weight? (And before the skeptics jump in and say that problem was anorexia or cocaine or something, I'd like to point out that there are other medical problems that can prevent someone from gaining weight. Point in case, mine. So shove it.) Lance Bass....are you kidding me? How does he get such hot boys??? Oh, right, famous. Central PA Pride is this weekend. Unfortunately, I won't be there. But it sounds like it's going to be amazing, I so wish I could. Club XS is kicking the weekend off with a drag show featuring all the best drag queens from Baltimore, so that's hot. The next morning there's the parade (and the protesters!!) and then there's the festival. There's a stage for all the drag kings and queens. This year they are actually bringing in some headliners -- Frenchie Davis for one!. Then, of course, Stallions is having a wild party. But Club XS is too -- and they're having DJ Seth Gold for theirs. Agh, I wanna be there!! Alas, I can not.
Firstly, I apologize for the uber length of this post!
Okay, before I begin I have an anecdote to share. I slept in this morning, went down for breakfast/lunch/afternoon snack and mom comes in while I'm eating and goes "Hurry, you're going to be late!" "For what?" I ask. There's this pause. "I don't know, don't you have something to do today?" "No..." "Well, I know I don't. I know your father doesn't. Do you mean nobody's doing anything today?" This is such a bizarre event that mom is like...I thought she was going to meltdown on me for a minute. And that pretty much sums up my family.
Anyways, this weekend started off special aside from Pride. Our cousins from the Carolinas came for a visit! We haven't seen them since our road trip down to them a few years back -- sophomore year of high school, I think. That's a Monday Memory (when I get back to doing those) for another time. Probably three or four Monday Memories actually. But anyways, we didn't get see my favorite cousin, Ed, that trip because he's been in the Coast Guard for the past several years (we think it's been seven years, and we realized we hadn't seen him in 10 years). Ed's been my favorite cousin since the incident with the giant turtle, which is also a Monday Memory I'll have to share. Anyways, Ed is one of my heroes, for sure. We watched a video of a rescue he did this weekend that kind of cemented that feeling -- Ed did basically all the work. Here, watch this: It's not as well-done as the video we saw but it's the same rescue. Ed is the one standing up in the rescue boat, doing *everything*. So we spent Friday with the cousins, catching up on years that we've missed.
Saturday was Pride RI (or, the much-catchier name for it is Providence Pride, because it alliterates). It was in a new, smaller location which wasn't too much of a problem despite the fact that this was probably the biggest turnout Providence Pride has ever had. The fiascos going on with NYC Pride probably contributed to that. I hung out with Joey, his ex-boyfriend Felix, and his friend Jesse all day because they were the first people I knew that I ran into. I saw a lot of people I knew though -- some of the Crockett Clan (who I went to high school with), Joey and Matt (two of Mirabar's shotboys), Justin, Preston, Bruno and Kenny (two of the strippers from XL and who were caught on film paying more attention to their adorable puppy than to me :-P), DJ (who I think recently quit from XL), Jason....I don't really know why I'm listing all these people. :-P
Anywho, Grace and Ryan and his friends Sam and Mike met up with us part way through and we kept adjourning to Joey's hotel room (to drink). Mike is pretty much awesome, and Sam is pretty fabulous too. I feel super bad because I have Mike's number so we could hang out next time he was in town, but I seem to have lost it. I'm dumb like that sometimes. Anywho...
So we watched some of the acts that were on the main stage...acts that included Frenchie Davis, Peppermint Gummybear, Colton Ford (who is STILL hot!!), and more! I was looking forward to Sean van der Wilt but, alas, he was cut from the lineup do to timing issues...and I'm sure he wasn't happy about it, because the crowd was amazing! Colton Ford was pretty good, though at first he had the mic too close to his mouth.
We actually missed the parade because we went to get dinner and it took longer to find a place that didn't have a ridiculous line (hour 45 minute wait??? That was the shortest!) and then to eat, so we missed the parade. That was sad. Then we went to Mirabar. And we stayed at Mirabar because....and this is said, I was gonna have to pay again in order to get in a second time. So...there was no trip to XL, there was no Roman Heart. I'm not complaining though. Mirabar was amazing -- of course, the numerous other parties at the other clubs had to be just as good! Some of the headliners from the festival were performing there, including the fabulous Alyson whose performance really was great and you could tell she was having a good time, and Jenna Drey and others, all of whom were great! Jenna Drey is frequently on the CD for A&F so it was exciting but simultaneously nauseating just because I hear the songs so often. :-P I also saw basically everyone at Mirabar.
Really it was two parties, too. The block party outside and the party inside, and everyone was going in and out but it was crowded! Fun though. Part way through the night Brendan and Cody called me to discuss things about my upcoming birthday extravaganza, where they were coming up to party with me. There was gay drama, which would continue until the next day and lead to the party's cancellation. That's all I'm gonna say on that one, but it contributed to a funk I found myself in after Pride. The other things that contributed? There was also drama between Joey and I, which I won't get into too much but it ended in, basically, him making a whole bunch of "if we're gonna work, this is what you need to do" demands -- not like to make up for anything I did because he definitely was the one who'd screwed up, but somehow it turned around to I was the one who needed to change for him. And I'm pretty sure I'm cool with A) that little about-face in who's the screw up, or B) the fact that he wants me to change for him before we've even been on a second date. Cause, apparently I'm not good enough as-is? Then I ran into Jonathon, who got pretty shitfaced, so I helped him get to his car at the end of the night. On the way, we stopped by Energy, which was still open. And who to my wondering eyes should appear? Kyle and Dom -- who had both moved to Florida and I hadn't seen since January!! So that was exciting. After that, as we went to my car so I could give Jon and "his driver" a ride to their car, he decided (because he's an honest drunk) to regale me with all the reasons we can't date. Or even try to date. Or in fact, do anything more than what we have been doing, which is hang out like friends and then make out just enough to get us (or at least me) riled up and then leave before anything happens. So I was in a serious funk. Or a "gunk" as they would say on Kyle XY. ("He's in a gunk." "What's that?" "A guy funk." "So what do they call a girl funk?" "Redundant.")
Monday I went out to get a job at Dark Lady. Except, in my funk, I couldn't bring myself to ask without moral support. So I ended up at Energy...which added to my funk. Two guys I had previously liked were there, neither one into me and one of them there with someone else. Ordinarily this wouldn't bother me at all, but, hey, funk! So when I was introduced to my friend Josh's friend Neil, who was gorgeous and flirty, well...it helped a lot. So, I'm starting to come out of the funk now.
Tuesday was full of little things: new manager at A&F who seems pretty nice, movie night at Justin's, Jonathon called me again (and again today, I don't think he remembers what he said), and, oh, I think I blew the Italian oral exam out of the water. That's right, this is my last week of class!!
Oh, and for people wondering what's going on with Club XS these days...my friend Jenny just put up this video of their latest amateur drag contest! Cody tells me my ex-boyfriend has been showing up to participate in them lately. You'd think he'd have gotten the hint: you've been doing drag for years and never gotten better than runner-up....they're trying to tell you something.
NOTE: There will be more pictures, I just have to ask my friends if they mind showing up on my blog is all.
So, last night was good. Went out to Energy, and ran into various people. Big Bill and Chris, finally, so that was terrific! I also saw that friend of mine who was the cause of that traumatic night at school and is the reason 911 is so impressive to me now. He's doing really well, he's all excited because apparently he's going to be a father in eight months.
After that a large group of us headed over to Mirabar. It was fun, but nothing eventful happened to write about, so that's all I have to say on that.
I woke up early this morning to help mom with this yard sale project she's been working and working and working and working on. I helped her sell things. Outside. In the rain and disgusting weather we were having. We did make money...some money. $23. Woo.
So I'm late to work at A&F because of this. I get there, soaking wet, sopping even. Couldn't even see on the drive there, it was raining that hard. Oh, and the thunder lightning started about then too. So I put it another five hours working there, and it was BUSY! And I was on the floor. I hate being on the floor when it's busy. The manager who was on for most of my shift didn't seem to be in the best mood, and neither was I...so that was not good.
So basically, I did retail for ten hours today. But only am getting paid for five. The good news? We have our June CD. And it is AMAZING. I think it's the best since I started working for the company. It features the typical techno that we all know, but it also has some remixes of Top 40 songs you can hear on the radio so that's great. Also, it's really long, which is so so so nice.
So I came home, exhausted, hungry (as I hadn't eaten since that morning). And spent the rest of the night home, bored, because I was supposed to hang out with Jon and Grace. Grace had to work, and Jon forgot to call me before he headed to Mirabar. He was also supposed to call me on his way back from Mirabar but since they closed an hour ago, I would imagine that's not happening either. He says his type is usually masculine guys, which I'm not. So there's this paranoid part of me that is wondering if that has anything to do with his forgotten calls, his impossible-to-reach-ness.
*sigh* I'm just tired of setting aside time for people and having everything fall through. I'm tired of being stood up, I'm tired of being used, I'm tired of games... And I'm tired of being broke. I'm tired of ridiculous gas prices. I'm tired of this building I'm living in (my parents' house). I'm tired of not cuddling (because Ryan reminded me how much I love doing that shortly before that all went to cold-shoulder-land).
Oh, and how about, Joey's being all "I have a lot on my mind" and not talkative all of a sudden. So I think I just went from three choices back to none. I don't get it; I'm young, cute and charming, shouldn't I have my pick?
Bah. I don't want to be here right now, but I don't want to go back to Pennsylvania either. This is lame.
I'm in such a bad mood, I hate when I get like this.
I went out to Mirabar on Friday night. Part of the plan was to get a job so I wouldn't have to audition at XL tonight. But, primarily, I was going on a date with Joey. Who had been seeing this guy, Erik, who works at Mirabar. Joey was paying for me, which was good because I totally wasn't going to be able to afford to get in. Erik wasn't pleased to see him with someone else -- especially since Joey is big into the PDA. We'll get back to that tiny bit of drama later...it did not really turn into anything. That night. At the end of the night Joey, his friend Jesse, and I all go
Anyways, so I wake up Saturday morning at like 11 to the sound of my phone ringing. It was A&F, so I was a little afraid I'd had a shift I'd forgotten about. Nope, they wanted me to come in from 5 to 10. I agreed and went in that afternoon. About 15 minutes in, a bunch of dancers from XL came walking back to where I was working to say hi. Sweet gave me a hug, Lee and Antonio and some guy I don't know, stood in the back. I said hi, we chatted and then I said, "Don't make a mess, I'm fixing it up back here." Antonio grinned (his gorgeous, gorgeous smile...ooooh!), picked up a pile of shorts, and dropped it carelessly onto the table. I glared but I was smiling. Then they walked away, Antonio in the back. He looked back at me and smiled innocently as they left. Then they left the store without saying anything. It was weird. And can I just say? I have such a thing for Antonio.
Shortly thereafter, my partner in crime at A&F came in to work and we proceeded to raise-the-bar on fabulousness for the rest of the night.
So, I left work at 10 and went straight to Energy. Saw some friends, said hi, found out what night their best night is (Thursdays, when I have class!) Then I went to Mirabar, danced the night away but didn't get tipped. Oh, and Craig was there. And totally flirting with me although totally sober. I didn't shut him down but I don't think I encouraged it. Oh, and how about when Joey showed up an hour before it closed? With a boy who he'd met the night before -- during our date -- and although they weren't kissing all the time, the body language read as "date". Now, he'd said to me he only dated "one person at a time", so I'm gonna assume he meant "one person in one night" or something. Either way, I think it's safe to say that's dunzo. It's chill though. Especially because at 2, when the club was closing, I ran into this boy by the name of Jonathon. Super hot, particularly in the face (which you know I love) and we hit it off really well. We spent the next hour trying to say bye to our friends and getting out of the city (and we got hit on a lot too). Turns out he lives in the next town over from me, maybe a ten minute drive. Which is, of course, a fact I'm thrilled about.
I was not expecting him to call me tonight like he said he would, but he most certainly did. I was, however, at XL for my audition. The audition did not happen, but I did walk away with mucho dinaro. And flirted with Antonio quite a bit. I made six bucks before I took any clothes off. At the end of the night, music was playing but no one was on stage so I took off my shirt and leapt up there. It was a preview of my audition, I said. I jumped down from the stage with 25 bucks. I gave Antonio a fiver I'd gotten, because I'd heard he's trying to buy a bed (although, I don't know why, he can use mine :P) and then one of my tippers -- who saw that act of charity/flirtation -- came over and gave me a twenty. That put me up to 40 bucks. And all I took off was my t-shirt, all night!! I can't wait to see how much I can make in my underwear -- let alone naked!
Anyways, I need to be at work at 8 so it's definitely bed time. G'night all!
I know usually I do Cyanide & Happiness on Wednesday, but since I've been bad since Sunday, I'm going to tell you everything that's going on.
Firstly, I'd like to say the musical The Wild Party seems to have the best songs for exhibiting my philosophies about life. You should definitely check it out.
So, anyways, Monday I worked at Abercrombie & Fitch. It was lots of fun -- especially since RGIS was coming in to do inventory. Woot. Woot. So we had to refold everything, absolutely everything, in the store so that the tag stuck out. And we had to keep it all orderly. And, oh yeah, they closed the stockroom several hours before the end of the day so we could no longer restock the floor or help customers find anything that wasn't out. It was kind of a rough day. But I enjoyed it. I do love working for that company. Also, one of my partners-in-crime, Hannah, showed up to get her job back now that school is over. So, that was exciting. Soon the dynamic duo of Hannaham will be back in action. I just made up that Hannaham name just now.
Now, I don't know if any of you have been in any A&Fs lately but this season's posters are so hot. Lots of "almost kisses", and for people who love to see kisses, like myself, that's very cool. Even if the posters are also (mostly) very hetero. (The picture above is not a poster from this season. He's got too much clothes on for that.)
I did not go out Monday night because I had the pleasure of opening the store Tuesday morning. I worked all day, but it wasn't too bad. I fixed the damn jean walls, I steamed, I restocked the floor using the USR sheets, I folded clearance (I'm always folding clearance -- if you are ever in an A&F looking at clearance do me a favor and do not carelessly root through the piles and make a mess on the table. That's okay in Hollister, but not in A&F!)
I got off work, went home, ate, napped, then woke up and got ready to go to class (which included wolfing down a too-hot frozen dinner in five minutes). My first night class. Ever. Some of you know that I am taking a class in Italian this summer -- this was it. My first one. And I was fifteen minutes late thanks to a massive traffic jam caused by a car breaking down in the middle lane of I-95, during the already horrendous rush hour traffic! Of course, I was driving in the middle lane. Total shitshow, I'm telling you.
So, I parked in the Civic Center parking garage. I had, in my panic of being late, forgotten that students are supposed to park in the Convention Center parking garage. They both start with C, I was frazzled, I made a mistake. We'll get back to that little drama later.
Anyways, went to class, it was fine. I wasn't the only one late as I wasn't the only one who took I-95. I am far ahead of the rest of the class, but I am pretending I'm not too far ahead so she doesn't make an example of me too often. We went quickly though. Unfortch, she said we were going to be stopping just before future tense. Which means we'll cover the tenses I pretty much remember and it will all be review, except for the vocab. Mostly though, it'll be an easy four credits and it'll cover my Modern Language requirement for Core Curriculum; and that's what I need.
So, I stopped by Club Energy which is right across the street from the club. I said hi to Jaymes, who works there and who I know. I asked if anyone else I knew was there (namely Ivan) but apparently Ivan gets off work at 9 there on Tuesdays. So I will go to class early from now on, so I can stop in and say hi to Ivan. I will have to figure out where he's partying these days and when too. He always goes to the best parties.
So I continued on my way back to parking garage. And discovered that it was closing. Like, had one door open and it was only an exit. So I hurried to my car, and drove to the exit. And then I realized my mistake. And looked at the prices. And didn't have enough to pay. So I'm panicking, and I explain the situation to the guy at the gate. And he goes "Give me your ticket." So I did. And he punches something into his computer and then he says, "Have a nice day." And the gate opens and I'm free!
So of course, then I went to Club XL. I tipped one dancer, Antonio, who is the hottest one there (and that means a lot coming from me!). He's cool and we kind of befriended each other, so that was awesome. I mean, we'll get closer. Especially considering what happened next. I'm discussing with Pot Pie the need for me to get a night job for extra cash, and how I'm uncomfortable with the nudity at XL but how I'm not great with mixing drinks which I would need to do at Mirabar. So he suggests I work at a shotboy at XL. So at the end of the night, we go to Scott (who owns the place) and he explains that I'd like a job. Scott goes "I have four people looking for the shotboy job, but come in Sunday after 9 o'clock and audition. Wear cute and tight underwear." So now I'm auditioning to be a dancer at Club XL on Sunday night. And I'm so nervous.
Firstly, I want to apologize for neglecting the blog this week. It's been one of those weeks, y'know? I think everyone else has been busy holidaying as well though, so I hope nobody minded.
Honestly, I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed. The holiday spirit was short-lived this year, partially due to this blasted house I'm stuck in. Love the people who live in it, but I can not stand this building. You guys will probably notice, I refer to Rhode Island as "home" but I don't call this particular place in Rhode Island that I'm writing to you from "home", ever. It's not. It's more like a hellhole somebody stuck in my home. If I owned a bulldozer, you know what I'd be doing with it.
Anyways, moving on...Christmas was fun. I got a lot of things I'd been waiting for a long time to get. These include several CDs:
John Mayer - Room for Squares
John Mayer - Heavier Things
Original Broadway Cast - Avenue Q
Lifehouse - Lifehouse
Also, I got Kelly Clarkson's "Breakaway"...except I already own that CD so we're going to have to do something about that.
I also got my all time favorite movie ever on DVD -- Ferris Bueller's Day Off. Okay, so I wasn't born yet when it came out but it is such a classic and it so so so so soooooo funny.
I also got a bunch of books, most of which I'd wanted for a very long time. - Stephen R. Lawhead - Patrick: Son of Ireland -Stephen R. Lawhead - The Endless Knot -Stephen R. Lawhead - The Silver King -Charlaine Harris - Definitely Dead
I also got a book from my Internet friend Lenaria, she sent me Jonathon Livingston Seagull.
I also started playing a new computer game, but I'm not going to say anymore about that. I believe it won't be too long before I make an entry about it.
I went out Wednesday night while the parents had a dinner party. The clubs were not exactly the most exciting they ever are. Still, I was enjoying myself hanging out with Dom, Kyle, and the bartender Ivan (who is quite hot, and has a great sense of humor I discovered) at Club Energy. Then, to my surprise, my friends Chris, Bill, David, Josh, and Pat walked in. They'd been at Club XL, but came by Energy to say hi. A bunch of us headed to a nearby 7/11. I was the only one who wasn't high, and that is all I'm going to say about the magazine pages that were somehow all over the street when we got back to the club. It wasn't long before we decided to pick ourselves up as a group and head to XL, so we did. I was pleased to see one of the really, really, really hot dancers remembered me from my one visit prior (this past Saturday, I went there with a date...I don't think I blogged about it. Whoops. It was really a very good date though!) He seems like a nice guy, and if I had the money I'd shell out for a private so I could get to know him. Oh well, I guess I'm just going to admire from afar and tip well when I have extra cash.
Tonight I wasn't planning on doing much, but my friend Emerson and I made dinner plans. We haven't seen each other yet this break, although this summer we were basically inseperable. We ate dinner and then, deciding we weren't ready to go home yet, we met up with some of his friends. Cool. As. Hell. He, like myself, has good taste in who he associates himself with. (Although, that's questionable for me...we'll discuss at a later time...) Hopefully, I'll hang out with these people again before I go back to school.
I also have done a lot of thinking lately. Unfortunately, as confident as I am most of the time, and as great as my life is...when I get introspective like that, it usually has pretty devestating results for something -- be it my friendships, my self-esteem, it's never good....and that's my cliffhanger ending. Tune in next time! :P
I have had the nicest weekend. I know, I tend to have pretty rockin' weekends, but no, really this one was divine. I am still all aglow.
Friday I was supposed to hang out with Boy-Craig, but his boss....well, let's just say, between the two jobs he works on breaks he pulled a 17 hour day, of work. He was actually awake for 26 hours. That's two hours longer than a full day. So, I was understanding when he decided to sleep instead of hang out with me. In fact, I was kind of glad cause I'd told him that he was crazy to try to hang out with me in the same day (although I told him it was okay if he fell asleep on me).
Instead of hanging out with Boy-Craig, I went out to Club Energy, one of the clubs in Providence. It wasn't too full or anything, but a couple of my friends were there and I made a few new ones, which is always a good thing. The picture I'm "borrowing" from my new friend Eddie's Facebook. My job this summer was dancing at a club in Providence. There was quite a lot of drama that went down after I headed off for school. I had only gotten some people's perspectives but I was missing a key point of view: the Boss Man's. Coincidentally enough, especially since apparently neither one of them have been out to Energy since Halloween and before then it had been a while, Big Bill (the Boss Man) and Chris showed up. I kid you not when I say jaws dropped, it was kind of ominous. And I was nervous, I didn't know how they'd react to me after whatever it was that had happened.
So I decided to suck it up, go over, and play nice-and-not-at-all-nervous. They were glad to see me, and I spent most of the rest of the night catching up with them. I got invited to their Christmas party, which is pretty much guaranteed to be a blast and a half. If I'm back from school yet, which I should be, I am so incredibly there. And Bill, being Bill, starts introducing me to people as his "son", like no time has passed. He's awesome. He also said if I had a date for the Christmas party, just to bring them and not to even call ahead. That was something I had kind of forgotten, what so great about the people I was around this summer: I really belonged. Before this summer that was something I wasn't used to in Rhode Island. I get that feeling of belonging a lot more at school, though. Oh, ps, huuuge congratulations to Chris and Bill. They're engaged, with their families' blessings, despite a major age difference and the fact that they're gay. Don't you love New England? That's pretty much unheard of in Pennsylvania -- particularly the engaged part.
The next day, however, is when the weekend got really and truly fantastic. You see, I went to my interview and that was fine. And speaking of which I have to e-mail the reporter like now with some pictures and my resume. Then Boy-Craig called me to let me know he was out of work and I should meet him at Olive Garden near his work. So I went, found him...and his mother and grandmother! Whoa, surprise! But they were very nice, and I turned on my charms which have never yet failed on a parent. They have, on occassion, been known to make the parent like me better than their own child. Okay, so that was once, but still. Anyways, I helped Craig back up to go back to his school and then we went there, rented Madagascar and started to watch...and cuddle. We got invited over to his friend's sorority some time later where we watched Mask and then Van Wilder, which was so funny. We all crashed there though, Craig and I in her roommates bed. Sleeping in Craig's arms was so, so, so, so, so, so nice. He snores a little bit, but rythmically and not intrusively so it actually is the sort of thing that helps me sleep. Sometimes he'd squeeze me a little bit tighter. Sometimes he was clearly awake, because he'd lift up his head like to look at me sleeping (which I was trying to so I looked like I was), and then once...he brushed his lips across the back of my neck. It was so sweet. It was, dare I say it? Perfect.
We spent most of today talking online while we did homework. Then he called me and invited me over, and I went. I just chilled with him and his fraternity brothers, who are so chill.
We're at a good place right now. We're not dating, per say, because of the distance. Should we both be single at such a time when there is time (like, oh say, a three month summer vacation...which, oh, not too too far away!) to start a relationship, we'll try it and see if what happens. Til then...well, we'll just play it by ear. But I'm content with that. If it's meant to be, it will be. I don't think we could possibly screw up badly enough to stop it.
Random question: when I'm typing, how can I get an accent over a letter? I know there's a way, but I'm not sure if it requires a number pad (in which case I'm screwed cause of, hey, laptop!)
First, I went to see The Departed with my family, which I'll write up a whole review on tomorrow, but I can't think of anything negative to say about it so it will probably be fairly dull. My brother came down from Boston just to see me! Which is exciting...but makes me wonder what he wants. :-P
Anyways, then I went out to Club Energy tonight. It was a good night -- not as many of my old friends as I had hoped, but I did see Kyle, Billy (who doesn't hate me, which yay, and that's a story for another time), Bill, Eric, and.....John and Kenny!!! That was super exciting. Now, don't get me wrong. I love all my friends from the clubs, but of them all the three I love the most are Neil, Kenny, and John. Not necessarily in that order (although sometimes, I suppose, yes). I feel very much at home, safe and comfortable, with any of the three of them.
One thing I've realized in the past year is that home isn't a place, it's a feeling. And like all feelings, it's brought about by the people around you. Those three...they're like some of the beams in the walls of my house. They hold up the roof above me, shield me from the worst of the world's weather...and in return I try to keep the termites from eating them. (Okay, shut up, it's four in the morning...at least I tried to be deep!)
Anyways, I really enjoyed hanging out with John and Kenny tonight. I met some new people too -- Domenic, Garia (who is fabulous), some Boston girl who's name I forget (I'm *sure* Kenny can tell me, he was all excited), Josh, and another Josh. It was a good time for all! Yeah, Kenny kept like elbowing me and going "I LOVE it! She's from Eastie!" and "I can't STAND it! She's an Eastie!" in his crazy, uniquely-Kenny-way of being excited when he talks. That's something I miss in PA, no one is quite that Kenny-crazy that's so amazing. John (being John and therefore intelligent) was smart and went and got his and Kenny's jackets while that was going on so he neither had to listen to twenty minutes of Boston-craziness (:-P) and they didn't have to freeze their nips off.
Also, no one will ever convince me that Providence is not one of the greatest cities on Earth. It's not NYC, that's for damn sure...but's pretty amazing none-the-less.
