My Hero!

My dad met President Jimmy Carter once. I believe it was before he was elected, but I could be wrong. Anyways, my dad speaks about him in this respectful, reverent way that he saves for a very select group of people. Among these people are Johnny Depp, who my father (an actor himself, who taught me nearly everything I know about the art) considers the best actor in the world.

Anyways, I think this article confirms for me exactly why he is so respectful of Jimmy Carter. Unfortunately, it will probably change my father's opinion on Carter if he sees it. Oh well.

Let me catch you up on the recent activities in my life, because -- as always -- I have been busy!

Wednesday night I watched Lost with mom. Oh. My. GAH!!! And that's all I'm gonna say about it.
Then I borrowed five bucks and went out to Mirabar. I ran into a lot of people there I hadn't seen in a while. Craig, for instance. Also Ryan, Rob, Dave, Mark. Also, I encountered my new friend Justin. I'm ignoring the potential drama that I believe surrounds him and some other friends of mine, it's all just loose ends and I'm hoping they stay that way for the time being. I'm ignoring it so much in fact, that that is all I'm going to say about it.
I will say that apparently, I met Preston -- who works at Mirabar -- prior to Wednesday. I don't recall this, but he did. Which is cool, he's perfectly nice. And attractive, which means he's permitted to be friends with me even when I'm being totally shallow (which is...what...87% of the time? :P)

Today I went out to buy my book for class. They swiped my credit card. And then a minute later they swiped it again.
My credit card was denied. I don't have 174 dollars left on my credit card. I have sixty.
And my parents own 36 (accessible) dollars, apparently.
And my rent is due next Friday.
I have this feeling I really ought to be panicking right now, but I'm oddly not.

But that was how my whole day went. Everything that should have been simple became complicated. After class (which was actually quite fine), and a quick drive around Providence looking for free parking, I came home and have decided that if I stay in bed everything will be okay. So far, that's holding true except that my window is open and the pollen outside is making me sneeze. I can deal with that though.

Tomorrow, I think I am going to call A&F and try to get as many hours as possible and, possibly, get switched to being full-time. I will also go to Mirabar and try desperately to get a job. I'm starting to think the best thing for me to do is work at both Mira and XL.
Unfortch, that means no partying time...which also means canceling my plans for my birthday and having a third craptastical birthday in a row. I dunno, I'm in a quandary.

Pretending That It's Wednesday...

In honor of Lost starting new episodes, and the hotness of Dominic Monaghan....

"I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad..."

It's kind of funny how what can go from being a mediocre day can come crashing around you to just leave you disappointed.

I was planning on spending tonight hanging out with Don and Bob. We've really only hung out once, but they proved to be great friends. Amazing friends. That was, after all, the night of the car accident.

But, Bob's class ran late. Didn't get out til 11, and because they are responsible adults they figured it was too late to call me and see if I still wanted to hang out, so they went home and went to bed wicked early for them.
....now hold up. I'm 19 and in college and I don't have class til 12:30. While, yes, it's responsible adult logic, I'm not a responsible adult yet. Hence why I'm up at 3:00 am the night before an audition. (Dumb much? Mmhmm!)

But anyways, I was so looking forward to hanging out with them and even though my day was over, now when I look back at it, it's all shaded by how the main thing I wanted to do today didn't happen and it just looks crappy. I didn't do an audition that I really wanted to do. I put it off instead, like some kind of procrastinator. I left my car in the hands of a mechanic I absolutely do not trust. I am not pleased with the work I did for my one class.
Today looked so good four hours ago. And I haven't done anything but call them since then. Blah, I hate being an angsty teenager.

On the bright side...new episodes of Lost tomorrow! And, hey, I will audition tomorrow. I don't know how it will go (now that I'm not all jazzed like I was last night, it's not seeming like it'll be brilliant....nor do I know how I'm getting back from it.)