"You're a dreamer, dreaming's what you do"

So, before I update you all on my life in general...I want to tell you about my accident.

You see, I was downloading music and I accidentally downloaded "Sorry's Not Good Enough" by McFly. I've never heard any of McFly's music before, although I've heard of the bad.
As it turns out, I love it.

So, that's my accident.

So, the weekend I was predicting turned out to be a little more out-of-the ordinary than I thought it would.
So, Thursday morning Kat, Katie, and I went to Philly to pick up Katie's sister. Then, it was off to NYC to pick up more of her family. We met with Kat's boss at Punchline Magazine, an enterprise which I think has officially made her the most successful (career-wise) of my college friends to date. I mean, she just graduated and she has two paying gigs for e-zines. Bravo, bravo! (If you want to read her latest article, an interview with Jon Reep, you can see it here.)

Following that, we split up. Katie and Kat headed off to see the Colbert Report, for which they had V.I.P tickets. I headed off across Central Park to meet up with my friends Chris and David. We went to get coffee, and while we did that David got a phone call about a party that night. He asked if he could bring friends and they told him he could.
We'd all just been invited to an exclusive party by OUT Magazine at Saks Fifth Ave. THE Saks Fifth Avenue ON Fifth Ave!!!
When we got off the elevator to the men's department, we were immediately greeted by two beautiful swimwear models. One handed us keychains (which I collect, so that won me over instantly!) and explained that on each keychain there was a combination and if that combination opened the lock on any of the boxes placed randomly throughout the store, you got all of the merchandise that was in the box. We tried all the boxes, but, alas, we did not manage to open any of them.
Chris and I, having been caught totally surprise and not having come straight from a job on Wallstreet (like David had) were terribly underdressed and despite our usual self-confidence I we were a little self-conscious around all of the beautiful models that were wandering around. I thought I was Jonathan Vargas (who seems to have dropped off the face of the earth) as we were leaving, I didn't say anything to him though.
Anyways, that was quite possibly the most exciting thing ever. EVER. I can't wait to do it again.

I met up with Kat, Katie, and Katie's family later that night. We finally made it back to Pennsylvania around 2 in the morning. I woke up, went to Physical Therapy, came back and went to packing.
Downside? I'd been left alone with Katie's crazy religious-nutcase uncle. There aren't any experiences more awkward than that -- especially since I'd asked that he not be in the apartment as much as possible but, uhm, I don't know what happened to that but it's over so whatevs.

Moving on...Friday night, Cody swung by and picked me up. We headed down to Brendan's place and once we got there, it wasn't long before Brendan took Cody, Adam, Jeff, Jason, and I to see the house he's getting and moving to. It's GORGEOUS and I'm totally doing all my laundry there. (Sorry, Brendan, you don't get any say in this matter. The Fates and I have decided without you. :P)
So, then we went back to Brendan's to meet up with the other Jeff and then it was down to Town. Town wasn't anything unusual except that I knew more people as I'd met so many people last weekend. I had a blast. Well before I was ready (but ain't that how it always goes? I say the clubs should all close at 5 am :P), we headed out.

I woke up bright and early, got dressed, and headed over to campus for the graduation ceremony. I watched with Stephan, and then I went back to the apartment to finish packing. Cody, bless him, came over and helped me move things over to the storage unit.
Katie and I went to the diner one last time together. The food was delicious, the ranch dressing was addictive, it was pretty much the usual.
I went out with my straight guy friends and Crystal one more time before Crystal truly departed for the cruel, harsh world of post-college life.

The next day I drove home to Rhode Island in driving rain all day. Nobody in the country knows how to drive in rain, so it was an especially miserable day. When I arrived at my parents' house, my elbow hurt and it was bright red. I paid no attention.

The next day, I woke up and went to my class. The professor informed us that, despite this being Chem 101, it was equivalent to an AP course and was designed for majors. I was all "Crap! I had to get this course pre-approved!" Long story of agonizing self-doubt cut short, I ended up dropping the course and adding a Biology to my fall schedule. No biggie. (Actually, huge biggie, but I'm trying not to think about it. :P)

Tuesday night, all of that school stuff behind me, Grace and I went out to karaoke, which was a blast. She and my friend Francis were the most popular singers there (which was cool, although other people who are not as naturally blessed in the vocal department and who were trying really hard and having a really good time were also really well received). It was generally awesome. And, of course, I got to see a bunch of my friends I hadn't seen yet.
It was the sort of night that a night out in Providence should be like, and I was psyched that I was home.

So, of course, I woke up the next morning with a fever of 102 degrees. My left arm was entirely swollen and bright red -- but I had sleeves on so we didn't know this yet. Still, we suspected my elbow was somehow infected.
So, off we went to the walk-in clinic down the street. And lo and behold, my elbow was infected. They took off the steri-strips, which were still on me because the nurse who had put them on had told me they would come off on their own and not to worry, giving me no time frame and no idea that I could take them off myself. And under these steri-strips; the source of my infection. That self-same nurse had left in a stitch! (Even though I'd asked her to double-check about that....stupid incompetent little bitch...)
So, I was put on antibiotics, including a burn cream (antibiotics that absorb through the skin). I've been holed up all week trying to get better so I can go out and do stuff. Now, I finally feel good again! But I still have a very splotchy, red arm.

Anyways, I should be able to go out again by Tuesday night. I'm keeping my fingers crossed because there is nothing like being stuck in my parents' house with no way out to drive me totally INSANE, right? :P

Oh, but we rented 27 Dresses from the Red Box. I've seen it before, but Mom and Grandma hadn't. They loved it, of course. Cause I've got good taste. I'm trying to decide what I want to get from the Red Box next, but there's so many good choices!

"If I tell you I'm weak and I'm scared, will that seem absurd? I'm the loneliest boy in the world."

Okay, no, the song lyrics in the title have nothing to do with this. It's just the song that was playing.

Moooving on...
I sometimes like to look at the way fans interact with their celebrities. It's amazing just how much it varies. And not just between industries. Just taking a look at the blogs of some of my favorite porn stars, the behaviors of fans are SO different.
(There is an order to this, see if you can figure it out.)

Take, for instance, Mason Wyler's Myspace Blog. Up until the last entry, he has gotten so many rude and disrespectful comments, like he's little more than an expensive prostitute. Like people have totally forgotten there's a person who's doing these porn videos? I mean, he also gets a good amount of normal people who actually treat him with a certain amount of respect and don't say shit like "i'll pay you 500 bucks to have sex w/ me!!!!!11oneone"
Seriously, morons, the boy has a boyfriend. And honestly, if you're willing to pay that much (or more!) for sex, what makes you think you're attractive enough for it to be worth that amount? Geezis.
Anyways, that's not the point. The point is that I see a lot of this rudeness on his blog. Why? I don't know. He always seems like a sweetheart to the people that don't treat him like a toy. Sure, he cops an attitude if you earn it (and even then, I'd probably give these people so much more attitude than Mason does. He's usually along the lines of "Excuse you, I have a boyfriend" whereas I'd probably be like "Yeah, so, with your face you better add a whole lot more zeroes to the end of that number and pray a lot.")

Meanwhile, we have Pete Ross, whom I adore. Now, I'm sure I don't see all of his fan interaction since he approves the comments on his blogs and I'm positive he's very selective about the fan e-mail he posts. That's cool, though. Actually, I think that's probably better because that's sort of like...if you're one of those people who like confesses secrets to the stars you love, you're able to do that and you can feel safe that it's still going to be a secret.
Anyways, what I've seen though is a lot of respect, but there is still sometimes that sort of "Hey, you must be a whore, please sleep with me?" thing that crops up, mostly in the subtext, of some of his fan's messages.
Which, honestly, kind of disgusting. It's subtle though, tolerable. And Pete handles it really well. But, and maybe I'm just being all conceited here but...what kind of fan doesn't know that Pete is madly in love with his boyfriend? Not like either one of them is hiding it, for serious now.

Jason Ridge is much the same as Pete, in a lot of ways (although he is less open about his romantic life, although I'm pretty sure he's seeing someone? I could be wrong.) Pete and Jason also seem to be near the top of the "compliments" heap, with a higher percentage of "omg your so hot" comments and such than most of the other porn stars. Not that the others don't get a TON of that as well...
(And how about the first result in my Google Image search for "Jason Ridge" came up with my blog? Awesome!!)

The only one who tops Jason and Pete, percentage-wise, in the compliments area is Jonathan Vargas. This is mostly because he's still a newcomer, really, so it may change. As more fans discover him, I'll have to revisit this idea...but I am pretty sure he's going to join the same category as Pete and Jason.

Then you get Francois Sagat. I can only judge Francois' fan interaction from the letters that I see and can read, because of the whole foreign languages thing butttt...Francois, aside from the compliments, gets ine thing I think is highly...well, stupid. People asking him to plan performances at clubs near them. I know I'm on the edge of that with my "Gosh, I wish I could get to your show" comments that I sometimes leave him but I at least understand that someone else is scheduling these appearances. I'm sure Francois gets some say, but you want him to show up at a club, he's not the guy to talk to. Talk to the owner of the club...duh. :-P
But, anyhow, his fans (in general) seem more respectful than any of the other porn stars I've addressed yet in this post.

Then you hit upon Francesco D'Macho's blog. For some reason I can't figure out, he has, by light years, the most respectful fans (unless there's something in the ones I can't read because of the foreign language thing) (some of those fans are so fluent in Italian, it's insane...and probably because they're from Italy :-P). Like, his posts end up being conversations because his fans (myself included, but I tend to be like this for everyone I'm a fan of) are...relaxed and conversational in their comments to him. I'm sure he gets a fair amount of the disrespectful comments, and since he screens them maybe he just leaves them out so no one sees them but...the point is, his fans are so much more polite and treat him like much more of a human being rather than a toy or a tool.
(Ha, and I adore how much my blog shows up in these Google image searches...I haven't even featured Francesco D'Macho and I'm all over his image search.)
Only Johnny Hazzard also has this quality in the comments on his blog, but I'm sure that's because commenting on his blog requires membership to his site and also reading through his posts that tend to be long, scenic, and descriptive of his life. (Which I enjoy each and every post, but I can't afford membership, so poo!)

So, here's my question: why do fans act in the way that they do regarding different stars? Is it a regional thing? The attitude of the star? Both? Neither? Is it how much you screen your comments and such? Am I thinking into this waaay too deeply?

My other question, and this is the hugely important one: when is Roman Heart going to get a blog???? :-P (SO kidding, guys, I don't want to stalk him. No, really...)

Thursday's Pretty Person...

So I'm a few hours late. So sue me. :-P
(No, please don't...)
Anyways, today, as our first pretty person of 2007, I'm giving you quite the Rascal, so you better watch out. ;-)

Yeah, this week we have the hottastical porn star Johnny Hazzard!!
I've heard some (insane) people, for a strange reason I cannot fathom, say he's not hot. I don't get it. Maybe they don't like his hot tatoos, or the glamorous jewelry he wears, or possibly his entrancing eyes, or the fact that he is one of those rare guys who pull off scruff in an incredibly hot way, or his cute smile...

He's got a unique style that, while I don't think anyone else would ever attempt it, is gorgeous on him and gives him a certain glamour (that's right, I spelled it the British way...suck on that, Fergie. :-P). Glamour, along with confidence, are a total turn on. Someone who is only mediocre in their hottness will jump to a complete 10 if they are glamorous enough. And Johnny Hazzard is confident, glamorous, *and* hot so that puts him at...what, a 30 out of 10? Yeah, I thought so.

Usually I go for blue eyes and green eyes more than other color eyes but Johnny's hazel eyes are so enticing and entrancing that they are totally irresistable. When you could get lost in someone's eyes for hours when you're looking at their photo on a computer screen, you know they got lucky when they dove into the gene pool.


He wears plenty of rings, along with his hottttt tattoos. I like rings, and I think it's awesome that he wears so many of them. And hot. And sexy. And glamorous (like I already said about him). Fashion wise, this man can do basically no wrong in my eyes. Or at least, hasn't yet to my knowledge (except for his admitted one in his interview on ChicagoPride).
So now some of you are probably wondering what he's done. What, other than his glamour that I keep going on about and his obvious sexiness, do I find so appealing about this man?
Well, you should know by now that as shallow as I happen to be, I always try to appeal to people who might actually care about personality and accomplishments. And Hazzard? He certainly should appeal to those people as well!
He's a well-established porn star. He's a Rascal Video Exclusive (which means, I gather, that he works for Chi Chi LaRue like all of the time, and that's pretty fabulous) and he's done a multitude of videos (some of which, like Wrong Side of the Tracks, even have plot! Well, I think it does, I haven't ever had a chance to see it...) He also dances at clubs sometimes, which I think is cool because it sort of makes us kindred spirits in that way. (Of course, lots of porn stars do that...Jonathon Vargas does, for instance). He also writes music reviews on his blog sometimes, which the movie reviewer in me (left over from my days on my high school paper) thinks is pretty awesome.

His winning personality shines through on his eloquent and cleverly titled blog Hazzard Ahead. It also has what I think might be one of the most clever pictures involving the Empire State Building ever on it. Great, great, great personality and a witty sense of humor? Totally increases his hottness factor even more.

Aside from that, he has two videos of himself dancing on YouTube. One of these videos has already appeared on my blog, and the other is kind of him goofing around, but it's really cool. Then he published another video: his singing debut. And I love it:

Another perk to Mister Hazzard? He's lives in Massachusetts, which may speak ill of his driving skills but speaks well of his taste (even if it is in Provincetown...granted, that is a prejudice left over from a childhood trauma nine years ago, it might be time to move on :-P). If only he came a little south and lived in Providence instead, y'know? Ah well, you win some, you lose some, and some of them like Cape Cod.

One of our other favorites on this blog, Pete Ross, also appears in Wrong Side of the Tracks. Hazzard has also worked with Jason Ridge. Good taste? Mmhmm, I think so.

In other, personalish news, with the beginning of 2007 we can begin counting down to the movie I was an extra in this summer. Normal Adolescent Behavior should be coming out soon, so keep your eyes and ears peeled. I was assured that at least the back of my head would be in it, how exciting is that?

"Love will find a way through paths where wolves fear to prey." -Lord Byron

Today is Thursday, which means we need to have our Pretty Person of the Week. I've had a few options for today, though I'd been planning since last Friday who this week would be. I was obviously going to stick with the plan, and indeed I have. I am, however, having a very Kate & Leopold day today.

You see, I wrote a paper on the 19th century poet Lord Byron today. I have never concentrated on him much, but he does come up in passing whether you like it or not (particularly when you've been involved in the play Arcadia, where he is a central character though he never appears on stage). He always struck me as rakish and I could never understand how it was he was such a womanizer. I discovered some time ago that he's actually bisexual and then I theorized that he was actually just omnisexual -- that he loved sex so much he didn't much care who he had it with. Yet, somehow, in my researching him today all of those presumptions about him seem to have vanished. He's actually kind of enthralling and fascinating...and not absolutely ugly, if the portraits I've seen today are any indication.
As I said, it's been a very Kate & Leopold day.

Anyways, the actual Pretty Person of the Week is the third porn star whose blog I read regularly. Yes, that's right, Jason Ridge!
Like all my favorite everyone, the face is gorgeous...but I love, especially, how expressive his eyebrows are.
You can always just picture porn stars are just these people who are sex-sex-sex-sex all of the time. Just like Pete Ross and Jonathon Vargas, Jason Ridge breaks that stereotype, especially in his blog. Just like anyone else he's a person. He's got depth, charm, and he's continuing to learn about the world around him and life in general. That's what is most fascinating about him -- he acknowledges the lessons that he learns and tries to incorporate them into his life.
His hotness is also really versatile. He's hot with hair or a shaved head, scruff or clean shaven, clothes or naked, back or....you know I'm just gonna leave it at that. :-P
Jason is another one where I could go on and on and on about him, his physical beauty, his personality...which I could do about pretty much anyone I post as a pretty person of the week...but I think I'm just going to give you a few more pictures and call it a post.

The Pretty Person of the Week!

I'm doing this one early because, first of all this is going to be a busy busy busy Thursday for me! I'll have stories and stories to tell on Friday but trust me....all is going quite well in almost every aspect of my life. Anyways, the hot guy of the week actually reads this blog sometimes, because I've decided that this week it's....

Jonathan Vargas

Yes, he's gorgeous. He's an up-and-coming porn superstar for Lucas Entertainment as far as I'm concerned. He's got a scene with Pete Ross in La Dolce Vita (which someone really needs to get me, or I need to buy when it comes out, because I'm so excited about this movie. Plot and hot sex? Yus!) I know, I know, last week was a porn star too, and I do try to put in some variety here....but I just felt like it. It's my blog, shut up and let me oggle who I want to. :-P

Anyways, aside from his business in the porn industry, he's go-go dancing much like myself and, much like myself, is in the learning process where that little bit of income is concerned. He's also in school, which is totally admirable.

Juggling all of that though, he still manages to have a good time, be a good friend, and a good family member, also a good partner to his adorable boyfriend. Impressive, to say the least.You can check out his blog to find out more about him or see what he's been up to. It's always an interesting read, and it's one of the ones I check daily.

Another reason he's the pretty person this week?
Because kidnapping Johnna to keep her from going to Memphis was a brilliant suggestion on his part. (PS, Jonathan, Johnna may have said she doesn't like you, but it's only because she knows I'm seriously considering kidnapping her now. :-P)