...I may have jumped the gun because my mood was so BLAH yesterday.
So, let's start with Joey.
He's cute, and generous, and sweet, and nice, and funny, and romantic.......
But he's got this thing. He worries a lot. And it makes him distant sometimes, and I'm not sure I can handle that. He's worrying about this that and the other thing, most of which are things he should actually be concerned with. But then he's also worrying about, for instance, what will happen when I go back to PA at the end of August. I haven't had a relationship that lasted that long, ever. And planning that far ahead makes me feel stifled. So, that actually isn't going well, but it's for kind of a stupid reason, I think.
Then we have Ryan.
Everyone and my brain are telling me to move on, forget about him, he's already forgotten about me and he's bad news as it is. So, despite the fact that I've figured out what I did (and it's stupid, and he's jealous, and it's totally something that should be a non-issue if I'm right) and I could apologize, and part of me wants to apologize...I don't think I'm going to.
And last, but definitely not last, there's Jon. And despite the fact that yesterday it seemed like there was a problem...it's pretty evident there's not. I'm just an attention whore and I need to tone it down a little so that I'm actually also a human being.
But I am down numbers in the choices area. And, rereading this, it's not even a choice anymore. This reeks of a decision that has been made.
In more good news? Look what I stumbled upon from the club Dark Lady today:
Dark Lady is the club that most of the drag queens of Providence hang out at (to my knowledge) and since drag queens usually love me (except when they hate me, so we'll see) I think I have a good shot at this.
2 comments:
See! What did I tell ya? And it has only been one day!!!!
I just wanted to let you know that I enjoy reading your posts. I stumbled across them tonight. I must say that you are a pretty sexy kid. I usually go to Club XL once a week and I believe I have seen you there before. I enjoyed reading posts that include Club XL in them. I am sorry to hear that you did not take the job there. I think you would have done an excellent job there, hell, I would have tipped you and taken you for a private. I really enjoy the dancers there. My favorites are Sweet, Xavier, Antonio and Justin.
Well I just wanted to let you know that I enjoy reading your blogs and hope to read more of them in the future.
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